I think I have decided what to do. But it's funny, I woke up this morning and for a minute, I thought my dilemma had been solved. Why? Because I had a dream about it!
In the dream, I was in my office and picked up some papers out of the fax machine. I saw that they were for my boss' boss, who I'll call Zelda, but glanced through them anyway, figuring they couldn't be confidential. But I noticed a page that had names of employees and short descriptions of their job duties-- and that below some of the descriptions there was a line that basically said that person was going to be laid off soon! I found my own listing, which read something like this:
Madame XSo of course I got all freaked out, and thought, whoa, I was almost going to walk away from that new job possibility because I thought things were going so well here, but now maybe I should go after it! I decided to bring "Zelda" her fax and confront her about it, but first I wanted to go to the ladies' room to compose myself. I stomped down the hall and threw the door open, but realized I had actually walked right into Zelda's office! She smiled and said it was ok, so I went in and showed her the fax.
Director of Something or Other
Vague supervisory responsibilities and general knowledge, but doesn't really do much. Attends meetings, and when she speaks out, it's always a doozie!
This position is to be eliminated in the next round of layoffs.
"I'm sorry," I said. "Of course I would not normally read anything addressed to you [yeah, right!], but this was in the fax machine and I couldn't help seeing that it referred to a coming round of layoffs, and that I seem to be on the list." Sheepish smile from Zelda. "I've been very happy here and I thought you were all happy with me, so I really can't understand this. Is this just a proposal from someone who doesn't really know all the people involved, or am I really going to lose my job? To be honest with you, I just got a call from someone at another company trying to hire me away and though it was a very difficult decision, I was about to tell them I wasn't interested, but I would really like you to just be straight with me about this, so I'll know if I should pursue this other job." Zelda said something evasive, and then asked who it was who had contacted me, and kind of narrowed her eyes in a competitive-looking way when I told her. I asked her again to tell me where I stood... and then, I WOKE UP!
So the dream did not really answer anything, but I really don't think I'm going to get laid off here... and I don't think it's the right time for me to move on yet. It's tempting, but the more I think about it, I just don't think I want to start climbing a different, more treacherous corporate ladder right now. There will be other opportunities, and someday it will probably be time to move on, but right now, I think I am going to stay put.